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The
God in me Greets the God In You
By Rose Whaley. 1987 was a very traumatic year
for me. Within two months, I had to come to terms with seeking medical
treatment for my dis-ease sarcodosis and struggling with the sudden death
of a dear friend Frank Robinson Jr. Although we were estranged lovers, we
maintained a strong friendship. I had been secure in my heart and mind
that he would always be there for me. His death shattered my fantasy and I
was devastated. Strangely, I had a detailed premonition of Frank’s
death. I did not understand or believe that anyone could see into the
future. Although, I had limited spiritual awareness, my vision did not
prepare me for his death. I became numb and withdrawn. I just could not
understand why he had to die. It took about six months for me to over come
my grief.
Approximately
three months after Frank’s death, I was relaxing, laying down and
suddenly I began gasping for air. I was uncertain about my ability to
regain control over my breathing. It felt as if something was being sucked
out of me. I was swept into another dimension. Everything happened so
fast, one second I was in complete darkness; the next second I would be
surrounded by a bright warm light. I was engulfed by boundless beauty. I
observed all these wonderful spirits looking at me. They were all bodiless
and faceless. Yet, I felt the presence of everyone I was close to in this
life. I knew who they were, they all embraced me and intuitively said “welcome
home.” I felt so much unconditional love, a sense of oneness, I knew I
was in the right place. Words could never describe the feeling, experience
or love that flooded my soul that day. It changed my life forever. I
questioned everything I was ever taught, learned, heard, or believed about
life, God, and myself. What is my purpose in life? What is the truth.
In the beginning this spiritual journey
seemed very difficult. I was confused and frustrated. Constantly
struggling with feeling of uncertainty and doubt. I felt alone and did not
understand what I was going through. Sometimes, I wanted to just give up.
But, I realized I was not alone. God is always with us. I can now look
back and see it was just my old belief pattern which caused resistances.
Once my spiritual awareness evolved,
those of like minds were drawn into my life. We shared our knowledge and
life experiences, books, tapes, workshops, and other vital information
concerning spirituality.
I inherited a strong sense of
responsibility for life. A quest for truth and becoming the best that I
could be, not only for myself but for all humanity. To expand upon God’s
most simple, yet sacred principles of love, sharing and doing what is
right all the time. To learn, grow spiritual and teach, which was a
surprise to me. I never envisioned myself as a spiritual teacher (and I am
good).
I ask that God continue to strengthen
and use me to light his path (not man’s). I realized years later after
Frank’s death that he has always been there for me and his spirit lives
on. He is helping me evolve spiritually. I feel his presence, I see him in
my dreams and in deep meditation. He had a zest for life and he loved the
summer months. I smiled as I wrote this, because I felt him smiling too. I
know he is happy, he looks good and he’s doing what is necessary for his
advance spiritual development.
If you experienced the lost of a loved one and you are
having a hard time getting through the grief, it is good to extend that
love to another person who really need your love too. This process helps
to eliminate the pain, while allowing healing. You can not live with pain,
it destroys the physical body sooner or later . Enjoy life it’s a gift! God
Loves You!
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